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I've been feeling depressed lately.

Well, not to the point where I want to cut myself or anything, but I have these moments where I wouldn't care about anything important going on currently and be sad.

Sigh, I don't know what to do. Fortunately, I don't feel that way all the time. It only happens at random moments whenever I think of the things that make sad.

I don't even know what caused this.

I've also been having a lack of motivation. Ever since school started, I've just been losing my motivation for everything, mainly basketball.

Maybe the main cause of my lack of motivation and depression is basketball? Hmmm. Probably.

But there could be other factors. I've been listening to depressing stories that my friends tell me, so it could be that too. Isn't that why a number of psychiatrists/therapists seek help too? Because other people's problems are making them depressed?

Or could it be this country? This country makes me sad, and it makes my blood boil.

Now for the rant.

The people. The education system. The teachers. Everything.

God damn, there are so many impatient people here.  Saturday night at the supermarket, Keren and I held up a line for less than 30 seconds and the people behind started showing annoyance. Are you fucking kidding me? Oh, okay, I'm pretty sure you have places to be on a Saturday night in your pajama shirt and shorts.

Also, one of my coaches, let's call him Dickface, is a TEACHER. Amazing.

He's a teacher who expects young girls to attend training even when they're sick.

He's a teacher who loses his temper easily.

He's a teacher, and a complete dumbass. A flid. A huge flid.

The biggest dumbasses become teachers sometimes, and don't we all wonder why?

It also seems like we can't have an opinion, or maybe that's just me. I've a low tolerance for stupidity and whenever Dickface or the other coach says something dumb, ignorant or fucked up, I feel the need to talk back and express how I feel.

Yet, I'm too afraid to do that. Even when they say, "Oh, it's okay if you want to correct me or anything because sometimes we can be wrong.". Well, that's all a lie. A fucking lie. The moment you voice your opinion, you get screwed over and shouted at for not listening to their advice, because their advice is obviously the best you can have.

Are we allowed to have an opinion? NOPE.

These cunts.

Song to describe how I've been lately.