It is only now that I realise how awful a human being you are and upon looking back on moments in our "relationship" do I regret not speaking up for myself due to the power dynamics that have to do with the differences in age. (What a mouthful.)
Do I regret doing taking things too far? No, but it sickens me that it was done with a person like you. Your innate assholery and pathos mask over the good times and have taken these memories and strangled all the excitement, exploration, and life out of them; what remains are dead scraps and rejects, repelling. Like you.
I should have questioned your motivations, a man in his 20s dating a girl in her teens. I considered them, of course: desperation, loser personality and mindset, and thus, an inability to interact with the opposite sex around the same age as you, but I chose to overlook them in order to satisfy my desires and curiosity. Looking back, I guess you do check off a lot of the boxes. You can't even interact with anyone of any age! Your loser mindset and actions are probably why you lack friends who truly care about you. It is a surprise you even managed to get a girlfriend. (Oh, another loser thing to do: give justifications for your shortcomings and insecurities instead of accepting them. "I've never had penetrative sex, but I think that once you have oral sex, you're basically not a virgin." or "I go soft when I wear condoms because of my reaction to latex." or, the best, "I'm a grower, not a shower." Sure man, sure, if it helps you feel better about yourself, delusion always works.)
I am dignified in this, unlike your manipulation after manipulation, which then turned into insults and anger when your self-entitlement is not catered to. Oh, you poor little thing, being treated like this and not coddled! It is awfully satisfying to hear you cry like a baby. You are pathetic in every way. What kind of adult cries over a barely three month, not serious "relationship" in which the person cheated? Gosh, put it in perspective and save yourself the embarrassment. I question myself, am I the younger party in this? I am baffled!
I know I am better off without you -- I knew it even while we dated. It is not my fault I chose to detach myself from the whole "fling" while you hooked on from rebound to rebound, crippled with your inability to move on from being hung up on your past love. It is not my fault that you cannot cope with your own emotions; that you cannot deal with the inevitable pain that comes with relationships. This pain not only applies to the ones you form with significant others but also friends and family. (But how would I know, I'm only 17, right? You have four years on me and you "know people better" than I do. Yeah, right.)
All the pain -- it is all on you. I take no responsibility in this.
Kiss my ass, xo.
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