Haven't blogged in a while, but here are some things that I'm gonna write: C division, Metallica, JJ and what the future holds.
So, basketball. We got fourth in nationals, I.. can't even explain.. what th-
Okay done.
Next, Metallica!
OOOOOHH MY GOD MAN METALLICA WAS SO GOOD. My first concert experience, METALLICA. Surreal, just surreal. I screamed my lungs out that night. It's a great feeling, loud music, subwoofers so loud that you can feel thumping in your chest, DAT BASS! Aeroplanes flying over the crowd in the night sky, venue in the middle of nowhere, just.. amazing. Unforgettable experience. After the exams I'll be checking out soft.sg for local gigs' schedules. Hey, it's five dollars for awesome music.
JJ is this special person that has attracted me, though it's not that much of a big deal. If JJ doesn't have the mutual feelings, I can respect that. It's unfair of me to demand JJ to like me, and it'll save me from a potential ugly ending. Why do I think there's going to be an ugly ending if I get into a relationship with JJ? Well, we're young and we won't last. It's just going to be a short stint.
But even if I do get into a relationship, I'd enjoy it while it lasts. I'll make it worthwhile and try to make memories out of it. :)
There's only three possibilities to what I'll face after the exams:
1) He likes me
2) He was leading me on
3) He was clueless
Only time will tell. JJ gets me frustrated too, like when he won't reply to my messages. I'd rather just have a face to face conversation with everyone, it saves me from hate building up inside. OH, YOUNG LOVE, HOW SWEET. Young love is a joke, and this thing that I've got for JJ is silly yet I continue doing it. But man oh man JJ is one of the few people I'd hatefuck if I had the chance. THE SEXUAL FRUSTRATION IS.. AAAALMOST UNCONTROLLABLE!
This blog post has been written in such a slapdash manner, so I'm sorry for the engrish... NOT!
I've been.. having some dangerous thoughts lately. Thoughts that I can't say out loud or even write out here, since it's probably illegal. But on a related note, kinda, I found my brother's buttsex porn video. I watched a few seconds of it and it just grossed me out. Don't know how females can watch f/m porn, it's really sad that women are treated as objects. You could always read erotic stuff, like, damn, train up your skills on imagining it instead!
I have no idea what else to write now.
I've been trying to arrange study sessions with my friends but they can't be bothered, it makes me sad and it makes me feel like a clingy person since 3/4 of the chat has been filled up by me, haha. Gonna be soooooo awkward when school reopens.
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