Closure

You know how it's like to think about many random things during the day? It mostly happens when you're about to sleep or you're in the shower or when you're just bored. I don't know why I still come across thoughts of a friendship that ended long ago and feel.. guilty? I say it doesn't matter and that it's insignificant, yet isn't it the opposite if the memory lurks in my thoughts?

I feel like I should say something, I should speak my mind and confront him. I keep thinking it's best for me to just walk away and accept it because he's a loser anyway, but I can't. I'm not that kind of person, I need to set things straight. Maybe it's the feeling of rejection, maybe I should've let it out. Still, I don't know how I feel about it. Guilty? Vexed? 

Sometimes I think I made the wrong choice for ignoring him and accepting that it's over, without any retaliation whatsoever. I think I'm just angry that, as childish as this seems, he was the one ending it with me when in fact I was ending it with HIM. If that makes any sense. I wonder why I bother.

He likes to play games and is a waste of space, so why should I be upset?

I just want to kick down his doors and tell him he's a fuckhead.